For the Love of Hearts

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Trying to mend a broken heart

Yes my heart is broken... And im trying to mend it.. Slowly building and putting the pieces back together...

Why us my heart broken, you ask?

Its not the usual realtionship shizz...

What do you do when somebody breaks your heart, even though your not even supposed to be related to the situation? Its so painful to lose someone you love... In this case I lost my niece, not because she was taken by our creator... But because of some revenge and pain her mother had with the past that she couldn't get over...

The mother of my niece is an ex girlfriend of my brother, who abandoned her child under our care, who had proposed to the woman for maybe around three times... the woman refused because she was residing in the province for her"work", the first time my brother asked her to marry him, my brother kept asking my and other members of my family to accampany him, i did not go with him because i really thought i ought not to be involved, so he went alone, denied of the first proposal, he went there again for the second time, still hopeful and this time he brought my niece with him, so that she would be, more or less be affectionate about it, second time... FAIL... Again... The third time he asked us again (us being the family) to go with him... Though I didnt join them, my mother and my other brother joined my older brother to give sense to the woman. And NO was her answer again... So when my brother went back home heart smashed, pride shot down decided to move on with his life....

It wasn't a walk in the park i tell you, if you knew my brother, you would know, lets just say i bounce back faster than he does, and he's the eldest in the family, who is already stable (I mean in terms of other aspects of his life)... And he did move on eventually, met his now wife and now has a son...

The now wife, treated my niece like her own (and being a woman, you know how difficult it is to accept a child as it were you own but is actually isnt) but she did anyway, and i laud her for that ;), now that their lives were calm and all and at the height of the christmas season...

Thats when the mother of my niece went barging in our homes (talk about trespassing...) complete with an entourage.of barranggay officials, a sheriff and lousy lawyers, who are so smug mind you and stares us down like as if we were criminals...

Me a criminal? Excuse you... If you ask people out there i could be one of the most outstanding citizen out there... I hated that lawyer...

So anyway going back... She took my niece under our care and then and there gone, the last time i hugged and talked to my niece.. Months after, and still hurt , i think, i write about it hoping it would help me cope with it, the fact that i lost my niece to someone who left her, it was really shattering... So anyway my brother trying to reason with her... Asked her why she did this and what does she want...SUSTENENCE so she can raise her daughter because she is having a hard time raising the child...

We recognize that the law is there, the child should be with the mother under 7 years old... But there are exemptions with which most of those exemptions hit the mark for the woman...

Abandonment- when she left our house, she says she was having a hard time in our house (where all she does was o facebook and text) she should have brought my niecewithher, even if you dont have any money... Because thats your child, she is under your care and custody, but she left anyway just by herself

Immoral- in a relationship with a married guy (her quote and quote new boyfriend, who is one of the filtiest rich dude in her turf, who she met in bar... Because thats her work.. She works in a bar)

Providing good environment and education to the child- well i dont want to sound as if she wouldn't be able give my niece the best care, but due to the fact that she resides in a dorm -- which is just a room although better than the slums where she really resides...

My heart is continously being hurt by this woman, who we took into our home just because my brother brought her home to us...

Monday, November 26, 2012

Cake toppers

I make poymer stuff, at first I panned and kinda wanted it for a business but then I got so busy with my clients and all...

so anyway.. my friend and co-teacher Cor, is getting married soon and she and her fiance are looking around for people who knows how to do polymer clay - - as they will put them on top of their cake...

and so I volunteered making them because I want to give it as my gift...

She provided me with Sculpey Brand Premo white polymers...

I have been hearing alot about the sculpey brand I always do encounter them but it will be my first time to work with it... I have been keen on using Clayzee Brand.. so I guess it wouldnt hurt to try it...

and so I opened it, kneaded it, then used the rolling pin on it.. it was scary hard as a rock... so I placed my TLS to soften them to mash it and soften the clay.. it worked pretty well

to get the shape of the swans (as cake toppers), I used my stash of hanger wires and twisted them as such to create the Long neck, and the swans body.. it wasnt easy.. I started placing on my glove so I wont have my fingerprints all over the swan... but since my gloves aren't the heavy duty type and my wire keeps on hooking on the gloves.. the rubber gloves broke apart.. so eventually I had to remove them...

to cut the long story short after 4 hours of me doing the topper.. I have finished 1....

I think I did pretty ok..

getting crafty once again

and i so miss writing my thoughts down.. lately the creative deaprtment of my brain have been put to sleep and its slowly waking up...

I will be writing from this point on I will try to write my musings on craft materials.. things I use on certain things..

this blog of mine will not solely be about clothes like I would have normally planned... this time around I will try to talk about the mediums I keep on buying over at different places like the national bookstore, fullybooked, powerbooks.. etc etc... somewhat like the "PS.. I made this" site only I zero in my materials.. hahaha have fun reading...